its cold n noisy at level 3 bone lab ryte here at skewl.
scuks. so noisy. i hate it.
arggh.
donno wads up wit me tdae. hmpf.

niwae, yesterdae received a msg from sumone whu told us to go mec coz someone wanna tok to us.
ok fine. i donnoe whether to come or not. coz i wud knoe its nothin.
n yea. afta meeting him n wan nip at city hall, we met ayeisha too.
we went to eat at BK. N went off at 7.45pm. i diverted all my calls as my hp batt is low.
i hate it when its low. scuks.
lolu called me n told us tat no one was there at the moment. i told her to wait for us.
dat sumone doesnt even tell us wad tyme dat someone wud wanna meet us.
the four of us reached at 8.25pm i guessed.
yea. guessed wad?!
scucks.
the meeting havnt even started! n i pitied(pity) meera, lolu, ayeisha, coz they come so far n yet the meeting is nothing!
we waited for like half an hour b4 two other VIP come. gosh.
meera was doin her hmwk by den.
hmpf. n yea. started actual meeting ard 9.30pm. wth.
it was abg rad whu gave us the meetin. it wasnt dat 'urgent' as i tot it wud b.
they talked bout somethin la. which not dat i cudnt b bothered. but.
i just cudnt get the idea why.
ppl from west, come down all the wae to the east, to just wait for how many hours. n yet, we hav to wait till they end their training. b4 they start wad they called a 'meeting'. scuk.
i knoe most of the ppl there, they live at the east side. but. please. for. goodness. sake.
think of us living at the west. by the tyme u end at 10 plus. we'll reach west at 11.45pm.
wad bout those of us whu got skewl early in the morning! cudnt u just. argh. scuk.
i just cant understand why.
im fed up wit them.
truely i am.
scuks.
its not dat im being rude. if i am. im truly sorrie.
but. i hope all of u keep that in mind.
if it izznt gonna b dat URGENT. plz. dont tell us.
i find it USELESS by goin there. as if we're wasting our tyme.
i dont mind goin there. but i mind bout the other kids whu r skewlin in the mornin.
plz. keep dat in mind.

fine. put my feelings bout yesterdae away at the moment.
talk bout todae.
tdae skewl was suppose to start at 10am.
n yea. the lecturer was sick. dats y im here. lol.
n yea. we're having 4 hours break ryte now.
nxt class gonna start at 2pm. wth.
but i guess gonna slip while my fellow frens are gonna watch the omen vcd. haha.
afta dat, perhaps im meeting him.
den we'll proceed to yew tee for training.
n yea. dat ends my dae.
miss him.
c ya later dear.

aww. just put down the phone wit him.
he's sick. gawd. hmpf.
dat guy sure doesnt like to eat medicine. hmpf.
how to get well u tell me dear.
hopefully u get well soon ok dear.
all bcoz u didnt eat, which causes u to b sick.
da tau ade national training, eat la. aiya. ppl nowadaes donno wads wrong.

im also confused. y small, petite ppl like me, wanna diet.
unless u're fat n small size la. dats of coz u hav to.
but den. if u're my size but smaller, n den ur wt is like 2 kg lighter, wad more do u hav to lose wt?
c'mon la.
stop dieting unless its reallie necessary.
gawd. just eat la. eat. eat. eat.
finally my wt reaches 40kg n above. yay! haha. reached my limits alreadi.
but still, im not gonna take part in tanding nxt yr! no wae! boo! haha.

oh well. yest BRAZIL match was kindda fun. watch it wit ayah as well as talking to him.
it wad like 'wad a match'. haha. mcm mcm kerenah seh. funny. hahahaha.
esp there's one part where GHANA player fell at the white line n half of his face was white! wakaka. i bet he doesnt knoe bout it. hahahahaha.. brazil scored 3-0! hahaha.

ok. im off to bed. tmr starting skewl late. im goin for attachment nxt wk. n there's a calender under my profile. haiya. must keep it up. coz i wont b updating my blog once i starts attachment.
gosh. hopefully my rship wit him is kept underground. hopefully. haix.
miss u dear.

7 random facts bout me:
friendly
like to make ppl smile
jokes ard sometimes wit lame jokes perhaps?
dont like to make ppl feel bad bout 'emselves
alwaes giv in to others
rating cute guys? haha.
when im in a bad mood. STAY AWAY.

7 things that scare me:
losing hym the last tyme
losing him for dis tyme
losing my mom. my dad too.
all those yucky animals.
being alone afta watchin or hearing scary stories.
exams. tat scuks.
being alone to suffer by myself.

7 random music at the moment:
bcoz of u..... kelly clarkson
more than words..... frankie J
unfaithful..... rihanna
stick wit u..... pussycat dolls
mengintai dari tirai kamar..... i donno
aku bukan untukmu..... rossa
pudar..... rossa

7 things i like the most:
my mp3!
my n6230 hp! duhz. i nvr leave it alone.
my computer!
the internet? msn?
blogging!
my diary!
him! my DK. mwaks.

7 things i sae the most:
eh?
ala.
*burp*
Insya Allah.
ala cute nye(wit nisa) hehehe.
end a sentence wit 'sia'.
love u. lol.

7 people to do dis:
er. got ppl ker. hmm,
my aunt.
meng er!
eeta!
arip!
lagi siape???....

weeee...... in soooo happieeee......
thanks to him. not hym.
weeeee... kekeke... oh my. i am happy.
i can feel that i am. just like wad my sis told me.
weeeeeeee......... heheheehe..
fine. i think love is gonna b in the air soon.
not soon. but.
NOW!
hehehe...

i love him.
of course. i knoe.
to b emphasize AGAIN: its him. n not hym.


a change. coz i knoe he wud b much betta than hym.
i find its no use waiting. coz he's betta.
n coz i knoe i love him..
weeee....



yesterdae 89.7fm n her bf i guess(i dont giv a damn if he is), came to bdok sports hall. even though i saw hym, i knoe dat im not suppose to b thinking of the past n i knoe i hav a much betta future wit him. insya Allah. Amin.
i dont knoe, but y doesnt 89.7fm talk to me? hmm.. wonderin if she knoes me? cudnt we just like talk? hmpf. nemind. i dont knoe if im in the wrong? haix. im a human. i hav feelings n so does she. oh well. wad matter most is that i am happy ryte now.
"hopefully u make me happy ok DK? plz don make me suffer just like my previous one did to me. ive had enuf suffering. haha."
im trying to move on. n im sure i can. Insya Allah. i hope all of u agree. i wanted to move on. i reallie do. n im happie dat i hav. even though the feelins for him havnt fully developed, but im sure one dae, i will. Insya Allah.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
[Verse 1]
Hes more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
[Hook]
And I he know that he i knows
I'm He's unfaithful
And it kills him me inside
To know that I he's happy with some other guy gal
I can see him myself dying
[Chorus]
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him myself die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him myself anymore
I don't wanna take away his MY life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
[Verse 2]
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
[Hook]
Cause I he know that he i knows
I'm He's unfaithful
And it kills him me inside
To know that I he's happy with some other guy gal
I can see him myself dying
[Chorus]
[Outro]
Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

haha... it was suppose to b a lyric from unfaithful by rihainna... haha.. this is the latest version by mee! hahahaha...

ive been sitting at home all dae long. in the front comp my sit stucks. i cudnt take my eyes in choosing the appropriate skin for my blog. oh well. mite as well i just use dis for the moment. i like changing skins. coz i dont like to stick on one. haha. oh well.
early morning i had a fite wit my mom.
not talking to her till now. i feel like so pissed off. i knoe when to study n when to hav fun. argh. do i?
haix. yest i went to jb wit my other 2 frens. we went to catch a movie, eat n went shopping. but instead, i shop for food. i wanted to search for a nice wallet, but i guess my eyes are to the wallet at the wallet shop. haha. too bad there izzint a wallet shop at msia.. haha. cudnt save my money. n yest at city sq at jb, a lot of ppl usik me bout my mole. argh. wads so nice bout the mole. thanks. but no thanks. i love hate ur critisism. argh.

i saw my god bro while goin down to the interchange at cck. he just went back afta sending his gf back home. oh. miss talking to u bro! thanks for accompanying me change money! kekeke.. now can buy the wallet at wallet shop coz i got money!! weee!!

tdae. i had a tiff wit my MOM. i had a plan tdae, gonna go out wit huda coz she asked me out n since im doin nuting, i accepted. ok. but den. i tot ibu lemme go but she said no. she said i hav to study n stay at home coz yest i just went out. WTH.. argh. i dint even wanna argue wit her i just put down the phone. so here m i sitting at home. one whole dae in the internet. n yea, i miss goin trainin everydae at kembangan. i feel much more freerer outside rather than my own home.

wad a mess. haix. i hate my life. its love less. i dont feel the love. f*. haix.

haix. he's back. he's back. yup.
but nothing from hym. nothing. its ok.
y m i behaving like dis?
i dont wanna b hurt the 2nd tyme.
by another guy. i had enuf suffering.
im beginning to hav feelings for others, but i just cant bring myself up.
i wud think of the past. fcuking past.
plz. to that others, stop talkin bout the person dat u like which doesnt suits u. how i wish i cud hav a guy dat is like so much gentlemen like u. i just hope u wud call me. haix. big fat hope. none.



4get it. i lost. fine.

-ace the basic driving theory test.- dats wad im reading now. hahaha. lol.im reading it for fun. oh well. had a great tyme last week. n yea. i got to c 89.7fm at sp tat tyme. she was kindda sweet wearing the scarf. lol. haha. nah. i dont think she recognise me. i smiled at her. but she didnt smile in return. i knoe u've taken hym. but plz. stop behaving like dat to other peeps. lol. nah. he's gone over to bangkok. holidaying. guess he's having ryte now. aw. do i miss hym. na. i dont knoe. he didnt even wish a good luck b4 he went there. haiz. i knoe i knoe. im nothing. i knoe. ok fine. yest had the psk comp at persisi. i asked huda out to watch me n meera doin. n yea, we wore the same dress tat we bout. haha. so kekok sia. lol. oh well.




i didnt manage to get anything for my tunggal. its ok. im sorie i dissapoint u guys. but im sure i had fun. hehe. had a wonderful experience. i had a big tite slap from abg zack as i was so nervous. n er. talhah was one of the juri. gosh. hah. i wanted to cry coz i dint get a thing. but nah. winners are positive thinkers who see good in all things. hahaha... wadeva. but yea. im proud of my two dear sis, meera n aisyah, for winning something for their tunggal. they had bronze n gold respectively. haha. n yea. it was worthful. wee! abg zahid won the tunggal dewase n yea, hanif didnt put us down, he got silver. wad a good werk done. thank god. all the last minute werk is a real blow for us but i knoe we all had fun. my regu team manage to get a medal for ts. wee! 2 yrs i got medal alreadi! yahoo! hehe. n the regu guys got silver n izie's team got gold too! nemind meera, u can train up ur team for nxt yr ok sweethearts. CONGRATS TO EVERYONE!! WEEE!!



tdae im feeling so damn tired. but ibu ask me along to follow her go sembawang libary. wad to do. follow her la. den go woodland library also. wah. den we spend 24 bucks justs on driving books. lol. haha. reach home, eat n sleep back. so damn tired. i slept 3 am in the morning as i was on the phone for 2 hours wit datuk k. hahaha. act sia he. he sae he wanted to bcome siti nurhaliza's partner. lol. wad eva. i'll name u datuk k den. but yea, his name also start wit k. lol. wadeva. haix. hopefully datuk k call me. no one to talk on the phone tonite. na. no feelings for dat datok k. he's just like a bro to me. he's finding a someone to take over his ex's place. aw. dont b sad. im sad too. haha. haix. oh well. im done.

mummy...... i need someone to talk to. i wanted hym to hear me. im in need. could i talk to u?



fcuk. i hate doin last minute thingy. I HATE IT! I HATE IT! KNOWING THE LAST MINUTE DAT IVE TO GANTI POSITION JUST GETS DOWN MY NERVES. YE LA. NIE SUME KEBIJAKSANAAN.. JUST 3 MORE DAES N THEY EXPECT TO B PERFECT? I KNOE IM JUST A NEWLY TRAINED ATHELETE, OH FINE. WADEVA. NO USE BROODING. DAT'S THEIR CHOICE. N ONE THING I HATE. STOP DOING THINGS LAST MINUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just take dis like a lesson learn. u're not endangering urself, but US too. argh.



fine. just giv the best shot. thanks for the advise bilal. haix. wudnt knoe wad to do if i didnt talk to anyone. i'll just keep quiet till evrything's over. UNTIL EVERYTHINGS OVER. I HOPE THOSE WHU READ DIS PLZ SHUT UP. SHUT UP.






sayang... i need u now.. plz. cudnt stand any longer. i just need u for dis very moment...

haix. at last u did wad u promised. im happie u were in the dot. n at least i shared was in my tots. argh. pissed off wit the condition of our trainin ryte now. n dis sun's the comp. wad the f*c*. i hate it. mite as well we dont join. argh.




haix. gosh. gosh. even though we dont want things to happen again, it mite happen again no matter wad. mayb coz we got feelins. mayb coz i hav feelins. or mayb bcoz u do still hav feelings? haix. its confusing. i do still love u dont u knoe dat. aw. forget it. there's 89.7(fm) for u.




im dreaming dat u still love me???????? argh.....