hmm. doin my project.
busy. so busy.
just now was chaotic for us at skewl.
all our notes dat was photo-stated was all over.
n we become kecoh for a while.
tmr's my presentation.
ta-da. im scared.
just now some of my classmates took the cpr test.
haiya. i onli heard tat 3 out of like 8 ppl pass the overall test.
the rest failed 1 man cpr.
oh gosh.
if they cant do it. wad bout me.
if they compress too soft, wad bout me?
haiyya.
tmr gonna b very very stressing.

ahh...
sowie. shared money wit eeta to buy something.
forget it.
yea. at last i met her.
n she's worried bout her darling which didnt picked up her calls.
ended up dat, he didnt bring his hp.
hahaha.
hopefully by now she heard bout her guy den.
hahaha.

arr...
yesterdae took my medal at persisi.
went together wit the rest of the kids;
ana, ayeisha, akmal, afiq, adi, amee, lolu, yassin, danish.
the persisi was so damn mendak.
n hot. esp the closing ceremony.
everyone cudnt stand still.
n we wernt paying attention to wad the guest said.
hahaha. n afta dat, took a grp picture. i'll post it later.
den we headed home.
i went to buy chendol as usual.
chendol, witout the chendol.
got it? meaning, i onli buy the kacang.
wakakaka.
amee alwaes asked me,
have i ever eaten laksa, witout the laksa?
hmmmmmm.....hahahaha. love u ameera.
ayeisha n family went to eat at bedok.
i didnt wanna follow coz i wanna go home.
we, the rest headed home.
ana, amee, lolu, noraini, ayu, yassin n adi.
we took pictures. i'll post it later.
n at the mrt from jurong goin to cck,
we had a very good tyme.
everyone of us was CRAZEE.
we laughed non stop.
esp when we saw someone infront of us,
sleeping n swaying as he sleeps.
the aunty n the gal sitting beside that guy also laughed.
we cud c tat they're scared that he mite fall over to them!
hahahaha.
n then, ana, amee, lolu, yassin n adi went to pasar mlm.
i was the one whu wanted to go there. i didnt knoe dat yest was the las dae.
n todae afta i finished skewl, i c no more pasar mlm!!
the pasar mlm infront of lot 1 da abes!
nooooo..
i wont get to c dat guy again.
aww...
there's this cute guy.
like 1.7cm kindda dark skin wit ghotti.
he's cute. he smiled at me.
n ayeisha's jelous dat he keep looking at me!
hahaha. yesterdae i walked at his burger ramli shop.
tot he wud saw me.
but he's busy wit his customer.
its ok. too bad we cant get to talk to each other.
c u other times den.
i wonder when..
haix.. y must it b like dis?? gosh..

hmm. ok den. im gonna upload some pixs.
taking care.
oh yea, yesterdae i saw him. didnt talked to him as much.
he's sick. so pity. take care.
oh yea. n saw yayat.
haha. talked to him bout huda.
so bad sia he. but he's a nice guy.
take care of ur leg okaz.

taking care dude.

"Adakah cinta memerlukan sebab? Tidak! Aku masih mencintai mu dulu, kini, selamanya dan cinta tidak perlu ada sebab. Kadangkala perkara tercantik dan terbaik di dunia tidak boleh dilihat, dipegang. Namun begitu... ia boleh dirasai dalam hati."

tapi... apakah ertinya cinta..??

aw. whu give a damn bout love anymore.
it scuks.
hahaha.

ok. im injured.
serious. nah. i dont think its dat serious.
im injured while doing a stunt during silat.
doin double wit ayeisha.
we ever did the stunt b4,
but den. didnt knoe wad happened yest.
i injured both my inner part of my knee.
the left knee just blue black.
but my right inner knee is swollen.
ouch.
i cant straighen my leg.
n i cant bend it too.
gawd. i wonder why muz happen.
tdae's the day. but,
im injured.
plz. i just wonder how.
abg z reallie want me n ayeisha to do double(ganda).
argh.
ok. i must act as if its not painful.
i hope it wont.
hopefully.

dedicated to my dearest aunty:
thanks for the tag that u tagged me.
im so touched.
its been a long tyme dat i last seen u.
wonder how r u doin.
ive been missing u thou.
did u have the 'saket pantat' as mention by mom?
i mean, the sore eyes?
hahaha.
oh yea, i wud take care of myself.
don worry, no such things alreadi.
n yea, we hav to study hard.
i heard tat u'll b starting ur skewl soon?
dats coming tues ryte? haha.
im sure u'll b fine when skewl starts.
hey. dont sae dat ive forgotten bout u.
dats so cruel.
haha. i try my best to b as free as i can ok.
den we can go out n chat n chat n eat.
haha. love u too.

tmr gonna go out n take my medal at persisi.
hmpf.
with the condition of my leg,
i think it'll b worst tmr.
n how m i suppose to do my cpr on tues???
arrrggh..
i cant stand the pain.
can stand uh.
still can tolerate.
but i walk very slow alreadi. hmpf.

i wanna do my project.
still havnt finish.
den gonna study.
health psycology n developmental psychology.
tough subj thou.
but its just an MCQ exams.
taking care.

mwaks. <<3

oh well.
a new blog skin AGAIN.
hahaha. how awesome was that.
even though im filled wit so many things to do,
i don neglect my bloggie.

lyfe has been ok to me dis tyme round.
surviving alone.
periods scuks.
makes my tommy ache.
n my classmate says ive a big ass.
do i? aww. i hate having a big ass.

just now did a post napfa test.
'ala cutenye' was there.
there's a pic at my welcome page.
but too bad he n me didnt look at the camera.
haha. he's cute.
but too bad he didnt usually talk to us.
he likes to joke ard in class.
n i like it when he smile.
he look cute when he smile.
n he look cute wit his hair style.
ryte nisa? hahaha.
oh well, overall, he's just CUTE.
dats y we name him 'ala cutenye'.
hahahaha.

am i flirting? no im not okay.
im just being a girl.
a normal single girl.
hahaha.
there are still other cute guys at nyp.
esp nursing. n engineering.
hahaha. ok. enuf.

had a post napfa, den did a 2.4km run a quaterly.
which means i ran 3 rounds instead of 6.
not bcoz i fainted, i didnt hav enuf stamina n it was rainin.
i wondered y i didnt hav stamina.
i think bcoz of that smoking.
argh.
haha.
stop smoking ok eeta?
hahaha.
does dat apply to me?
hahaha.

tmr gonna hav a martial arts nyte at yew tee.
plz do come down if u're free.
still remember last tyme martial arts a yr ago,
i tot huda wud b there.
her frens was there, but not her.
i was expecting her.
but she wastnt there.
hahahaha.

oh well.
i donno wad to update about.
im kinda bored.
but ive my long tyme no c sista, rena to talk to me.
long tyme neber c her.
miss u la rena.

ok. gonna go to clat later on.
it seems dat it havnt stop raining.
haix. so lazee to go.
but hav to.
the kids wud b there.
yay.
hahaha. ok.
nytes. muaks.

finally.
im halfway thru my project on childhood immunisation.
gosh. this tyme the presentation is a lone presentation.
gosh. gonna b scared.
scared my classmate bombarred me wit questions dat i dont even wanna ans.
hahaha.
hopefully everythings goes well nxt tues.
tues the 1st of aug wud b so terrifying day for me.
i got three big events goin on.
the first is my presentation, than the Basic Cardiac Life Support practical and theory.
basically the Basic Cardiac Life Support is just CPR.
i took my test on CPR when i was in sec 4.
i got the cert.
but i lost it.
so i have to retake the test.
im scared.
so terryfied.
gonna b stress.

im gonna b stress for the whole of this month.
gonna study each n every moments that im free.
n im sure i'll blog when im bored.
i cant afford to waste any time except for sleep.
hahaha.
week afta weeks gonna b papers afta papers.
exams are starting real soon.
dats 3 weeks from now.
gosh.
im scared.

tabahkanlah hatimu ini Ya Allah.

i donno wad else to blog.
taking care. don take drugs.
take alcohol? wahahaha.
lame.
lame jokes ana.
muaks.

im back in skewl.
in the bone lab as usual.
tdae's lecture was OKAY.
but as usual, i fell asleep on one of the lectures.
hehehehe.
such a bad habit of me.
sleeping when the lecture is boring.
but it sure is.
haha.


saturday went to madrasah.
there's a cute boi at my class.
every week witout fail, he surely wear baju kurong.
kuit.
hahaha.
lol. den met the kids at jurong n went straight at mec.
actuallie we stopped a while at geylang to walk walk.
bought bubble tea each n went to mec.
we didnt wanna train.
so when we reached there, we took out a pen n a paper n talked bout the upcoming martial arts nyte at yew tee.
all are invited.
hahahaha.


i tot that the meeting suppose to start at 5-7.
but it started afta maghrib.
n we had to change coz the boss told us to.
hahaha.
we changed n sat at the matress.
him and hym was there.
i didnt said a word to both of them.
basically to none of the ppl.
i dont knoe why.


they started the meeting.
it was just about the national atheletes making a mistake
which was a big mistake i guess.
even the code of ethics was told to us.
one of the code of ethics: no one is allowed to dye ur hair.
as for the gals, u're suppose to wear jilbab in any case of a silat training.
i forgot wads the other code of ethics.
there're about 6 books on those i guess.
i wonder when i cud owe even one book.
i guess twenty yrs down the road?
wakaka.
it was a lesson to b learn for the juniours n the seniours.
i guess, this tyme it was worth it.
i guess. to me.
n yeah. to the kids. im sure they'll understand.
went back home quite early.
didnt manage to say bye to hym,
as he's behind wit his fwen.
didnt say bye to him too,
as he was at the shop buying something.
its ok.
dont say i didnt wanna approach u guys.
i just cant bring myself.


i was surprised when "ala cutenye" from my grp msg me.
he said he saw me goin back home from silat.
but it was at eight when he msg me.
i was at the meeting.
how come he saw me.
ended up, he said its not me la.
den he paiseh.
tdae saw him i didnt tegur.
coz i didnt want him to feel paiseh anymore.
hahaha.
but i cant deny that he's cute!
ryte nisa!
hehehehehe.


yay.
i cant wait for my things to come.
i bought an eyeliner, a liquid eyeliner a lipgloss by avon.
weee.
hehehehe.
i took some stuffs at mak's shop yesterdae.
took quite a lot of selendang, i took henna, took bedak sejuk, took other things.
oppps. betta go.
my comp shutting down in another four minutes.
goodbye.
love u all. muahssss.s.....
<<<3'

i dont wanna b in love ever again.

b single.

gimme a lyfe.

yay. last four days left n i wud b back in skewl.
hmpf.
den exams.
yay.
todae manage to c pregnant mommy's.
kekeke. c their big belly button.
hmm. i wonder how wud i look like if im pregnant.
wakaka. dream on.

haha.
they're a young mothers.
some are onli 21 when they got one child.
i manage to carry the newborn.
its so cute!
tmr gonna b at the nursery.
yay!
gonna bathe the baby.
cant wait.
but i scared too.
boohoohoo.
haha. den thurs gonna go to the labour suite n watch a labour.
just now got a case of abortion.
but we didnt manage to c it.
hmpf. so sad.

we've got a case study to do.
n erm im busy doing my projects.
so.
im still hoping to buy a hp soon.
sony erricsson.
hmm.

haiya.
so sad.
so boring.
pathaticcally bored.

just put down the phone wit him.
he wanted ayeisha's hp number.
hmm. u called just to here my voice ker.
hmpf. its ok.
i think i talk to him like i dont like like dat.
i donno.
its not dat i don like him alreadi.
i donno.
its just me i guess.
i think larh when its over between me n a guy, i wont take concern bout him alreadi.
i donno. mayb dats me. i think larh.
but i dont think so lei.
heh. donno wad i toking. haha.
went to ivp at nyp todae.
went to skewl alone, but saw wan nip on the wae.
kamal was alreadi there. but didnt went inside to sit wit them.
didnt wanna meet him.
they went to MEC alreadi when ayeisha n me wanna go home.

when i wanted to go to madrasah.
saw hym at the mrt track.
he's heading towards woodlands.
but i didnt c hym at nyp.
his sista said he's werking.
working?
as wad?
hmmm... i wonder.
saw his beloved at nyp. aiya. donno wad to sae.
hmpf. forget it.

haix. its gonna b days i didnt c my bus driiver bus 92.
kekeke.
i took the same bus wit the same bus driver for 3 daes continuously.
kekeke.
he looks like his early twenties.
skali anak bapak alreadi arh.
my fren sae he's kindda cute. hehehe.
aww. he laughed when my fren kacau me n dat driver.
aiya. paiseh sia.
haha. hmm.
i wonder when i end shift at 8, i wud b able to c dat abg driver again.
weeee...
n yea. got this guy, he's rather tall, thin, kindda cute or i mite sae hansem.
hehehe.
he smiled at me while im at werk seh!
hahaha. i shy u.
i was carrying a baby patient i guess when he came to my ward pushing a carton of Baxter product.
n he smiled at me again!
n i saw tat guy when i ate at basement wit my fren.
i told my fren n she said the abg driver more cute than the Baxter guy.
oh nemind. hahaha.
i knoe. im such a wad gurl.
im just playing around.
looking at my victims. hahaha.
this is the cause if im single.
b careful of me.
hahahaa.

joking lar.

k den. i gtg.
my mom angry alreadi.
spend an hour at comp also she mad.
wad onli.
hmpf.

im saving up money.
hopefully.
gonna buy a skirt or dress for ayeisha's bdae.

muaks. <3>

im sick.
hmpf.
having a flu.
hope it doesnt get worsen by tmr.
hmpf. tmr wud b the laz dae at ward 47 paedatric wards.
gonna go to labour ward nxt week.
gonna miss the staff nurses, the assistant nurses, sisters n esp the patients over there.
basically, at the ward, we just S-L-A-C-K.
walking to one cubicle to the others.
gossipping. wakaka.
dats wad nurses do.
haha.
no larh. joking.

yest i slept at 10 n woke up at 1 coz got dis fellow msg me.
stayed up till 2.30 to layan hym.
haix.
wad do u want my dear.
wad exactly do u want?
hmpf. im sure ur gf can giv u wad u want from me.
please.
ive had enuf.
wanting to meet u is kindda impossible even though im not attached.
but keeping the mind dat u r attached makes it more impossible.
i reallie hope u understand my dear.
doesnt mean dat i dont wanna meet u.
but i knoe dat i just cant.
i cant. i dont want history to happen again.
argh. y u msg me.
c larh. the tots of u come back.
shit sia.
hmpf.
how. how. always like dis.
im just so scared.
petrified.
terrified.

please.

i feel dat i miss hym.

gawd.

so sorie.

sad
sad. sad.
sad. sad. sad. sad.
seems like the urge to buy hp from my cuzzion is G0NE.
ahhh.
i want it. hmpf.
oh well. guess im not fated to dat hp.
wakaka. i just need to werk in order to hav money.
but. werk? where? hmmmm...

oh yea. ayeisha's bdae is coming.
n i havnt got her any.
wad to buy for her?
she wanted a dress from 77th street.
n its 3o odds. hmpf.
money again.
how i wish i hav loads of 'em.
haixx.

i think im having a flu.
hopefully not a bad one.
last nyte thinkin dat someone wud msg.
but none.
so bored.
onli his sista msg me.
aiya.

IM BR0KE!!

on mondae, my fwen n i played taiti(poker card) wit a patient.
ive forgetten how to play it.
coz i last played taiti wit hym during my sec life.
gosh. i miss playing the game wit hym.
playing wit my patient makes me think of hym.
he thought me how to play it n i began to liked that game.
still remember during our sec life, we brought poker cards n played during recess.
haix.
these are all memories.
beautiful memories.
*sobs*

yes. last dae of the week.
yippie.
i wud say dat dis posting is........
B-O-R-I-N-G!!
its so fcuking boring.
we didnt get to do much hands on.
only do the bp, the pulse n temp.
wtf.
haha.
but den i mange to do one wound dressing.
the wound is like WOW. big n deep inside.
hmpf. ok.
aftanoon shift totally scuks. we students just hang ard every corner.
haha. but its fun doing nothing.
get to knoe the kids betta.

tmr starting of ivp.
hmm. wonder if im goin. i wanted to.
but wit whu?
he asked me to go wit him.
wonder if i can mit up wit him yet.
perhaps im goin afta my madrasah. it mite end late i guess.
i hope so.
haha.
n im sure i wanna go on sunday too!
yes.
tmr gonna buy new bag.
yippie.
cant wait.
hope ibu dont mind. i mite just sae i borrow it from ma fren.
haha.

oh. im off.
wanna go to the toilet.
its urgent. i'll update tonite if im not tired.
adious.
mwah.

ouch.
my leg's tired. so tired dat i want a wheelchair to move ard.
aww. onli 3 daes of attachment passed by.
im left wit 12 more days.
counting down.
tmr gonna work in the pm shift as stated at my profile.
i wonder how's pm wud b like.
hopefully ok.
coz werking in the mornin shift seems ok.
but so tired.
we cant even sit.
all we did was stand!
my gawd.
if my cubicle ward got baby den nice la.
but den. no baby to play wit.
sad. haha.
argh. need to do case study somemore.
hav to present it by fridae.
n got patient education's presentation afta attachment.
n got CPR theory.
my gawd. so many! arrgh.
im feeling the stress ryte now!

hmph.
tdae portugal n france at 3am.
watch it.
bet on portugal!
kekeke..
cristiano ronaldo is so0o0o cute!
baby face seh.
aww..
nemind. c my face more cute ryte.
keke.

.a smile dat hide those tears.
haix.

"its over".
hmpf.
scuks.
fcuk.

fcuk.
scuks.
hmpf.

fine.
i understand dear.
its the best for us.
don ya worry bout me honey.
im sure i'll b fine.(i hope i am)
mayb it does changes my mindset on guys.
but i knoe he's doing it for a reason.
n i muz understand which i think i do.
he's havin probs which he doesnt want me to b involved in.
he's under a lot of pressure.
wit EVERYTHING.
we shudnt b mad. coz he has a big problem.
im very worried bout him. but. i cant do anythin.
so plz. im forlorn.
stop saying bad things bout him.
he love me. (i guessed?)
im beginnin to love him when i tot i cud hav time wit him,
not till todae.
ive had enuf.
reallie i hav.
perhaps i just cudnt take it anymore.
*cries*

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If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
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I love to be myself. yea. true.
I mite look decent, and good; but not a trace.
I stay awake till dawn,
I make myself busy till dusk.
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