it all started there.
MacDonald's the place.
thank you.



i just hope dat u'd do anything for me too.
i respect what u wanna tell me n what u dont wanna tell me.
but i know that there is something dat u r keeping from me.
what izit?
what's so hard to tell me bout it?
i just felt something wasnt ryte.
n i cudnt sense what was it.
im sorie if i intrude into ur lyfe suddenly.
u went into my lyfe in a sudden too.
n now, i just cudnt bear to c u out of my sight.
promise me.
just dont leave me. promise me.
i love u.



there is a reason why things happen.
but i guess i still cudnt find the reason y my mom just behaves like dat.
what's wif her this few days?
i knoe she iznt happie bout something.
what izzit mom!
u dont want me to b happy?
i am happy now.
i just wanna stay happy.
just accept things.
whats so hard bout it?
y cant u allow me to be sociable?





eeta, even thou now we seldom meet,
just remember dat i'll always love u.
no other best fren cud ever replace ur position.
i'll qoute what u ever said to me.
"if u dont hav, who else i hav? fren like u diff to find. got bf doesnt mean we can last."
n yea, i hope our frenship last forever di dunia dan akhirat.
Insya Allah.
i love u babe.

kwang3.

heee. oh well, hav fun viewing.
its an everyday event where both of us just feel like taking photo each day.
starting with:


on tues during lunch. 15.05.07


on thurs at bone lab. 17.05.07


on fri waiting for nisa's dad to pick her up. 18.05.07


monday adta skewl. 21.05.07


tuesday afta tutorial. 22.05.07


wednesday afta skewl. we were emo tat day, so memory for being emo-ish. 23.05.07


thursday at south canteen. we were watching 'hantu jeruk purut'. scary movie. so a pic for memory. haha. 24.05.07


here comes the last week of the day. friday, at the toilet afta lab. haha. wondering y we touch our chin? coz we just love to touch each other's chin n play ard!


look at that. haha. 25.05.07

do look forward for next week's photos. hahaha.
adious.

getting to know ppl,
getting to meet someone new.
n when u thought u found dat someone,
u just wanna cling to dat person forever.

i just hope dat what i did wasnt a mistake.
i just hope dat i did a right decision.
i just hope dat history wont happen again.
i just hope dat i wont b alone again.

i just hope dat u wont play wif my heart like what others hav done.
i just hope dat u wud make me happy.
i just hope dat u wudnt make me sad.
and lastly,
i just hope dat u wudnt leave me.

i love HIM.

all thanks to my dearest brother.
i love him too.
if not because of my brother, this wont happen.

adeq, b strong mo matter what okay..
u hav kakak n abang by ur side..
we love u..

*ouch*
i just feel that my right eye is smaller than my other eye.
but ppl dont c the diff.
i feel diff at my face.
just bcoz of a fall from yesterday's training.
my face got dragged on the matress! haha.
funny. but painful uh.
fun.
exploration of new techniques,
u rather b hurt then get nothing.

but true enuf,
u must hav self confidence to do learn something new.

im goin home straight afta skewl i hope.
so guys, sorie i cudnt hang out with both of u today.
i'll miss u both.
=]

im plain bored at skewl ryte now.
class was supposed to end at 6 but they pushed up the tutorial at 2.
so today we end at 4.
hmm.
was supposed to go kembangan straight afta skewl today.
but since we end early, where shud i go?
hmm.
*wonders*
shud i just stay at skewl or shud i just hang out under my block or shud i just go straight home n not go out again.
i m really dragging myself to go kembangan.
takes us 1hr to reach there.
usually we end training ard 2200. change la, drink la, it wud b 2230.
den by the tyme we reach cck, it'll b 0000hrs.
argh. somemore coz of the changing of categories. so troublesome. argh.


i dont know why but i just feel like hanging outside each tyme i end skewl early.
i dont know what to look forward to when im home. haix.
i know im wasting tyme.
but mind u, i sometimes study when im outside.
i read the journals that was given to me. haha.

help me decide which puma watch to buy. i feel like buying one of this puma watch. do tell me which watch is the nicest yea. or if u hav anywatches dat's much nicer than puma watch, do tell me okay.









they come in various colours. but i dont know which is nice for me.
dont ask bout the prices. but i just wanna know which watch suits me.
thanks..

had great fun today. haha.
had a short performance at cck sq earlier this morning.
afta that, afiq, shahrul, akmal n me went maCd to eat.
i said it was fun bcoz akmal n shahrul brought their bicycles along.
so n me n afiq actualiie wanted to become the pillion.
coz we both havnt got a chance to become a pillion on a bicycle. hah.
in the end, akmal n shahrul one bicycle, afiq n me other bicycle. hah.

i had to treat them mac coz they woke early in the morn just to go for the performance thingy.
at first we send afiq back home, den akmal. left me n shahrul. den afiq join us again.
so left 3 person with one bicycle.
den this afiq is so irritating bout something.
in the end, we had to go back to cck cc to c if it is cck cc n not teck whye cc.
craps la this afiq.
den imagine, just to go the cc to c the cc name.
n we were sitting around my area there.
me n shahrul were lazee to go coz of that tiny little matter.
den since afiq said dat he wud blanja us mkn if we win, den the 3 of us went to the cc.
imagine,
3 person in one bicycle. haha.
i was sitting at the handle bar, shahrul was the one cycling, n afiq standing at the back. haha.
imagine dat.
n shahrul's bicycle has this loudspeaker thingy, so we on the music.
n ppl started staring at us.
crazzy these kids. haha.
den of course la me n shahrul got a treat from afiq at last. haha.
but den the most happies thing was the ride where the three of us were in one bicycle. haha.
pity shahrul coz he was the one who had to cycle us to n fro.
so, credits to shahrul.

happiest but still mayb inside not so.

i was having my lontong b4 goin out to the performance when i received a call.
shocking. surprising.
makes my lontong came out of my mouth.
only a few more weeks to PSK.
i was supposed to b in the solo category.
trained for like a month ago, den today get the call,
said that they changed my category.
to double n trio.
im like, "what the."
in my heart, i already trained for solo, n only a few weeks left, u want me to change?
hmm. ive got no position to oppose.
i agree to the matter that aisyah is much betta den me.
n i know dat she deserves to take my place.
mayb last yr was my only chance to take the solo category.
its okay.
haix.
i cant do anything.
its their order. n we do it.
haix.
gotta train up triple den usual.
hmm.
i do feel a diff in goin to kembangan dis tues.
haix.
i just feel like not goin.
but endure. i hav to go no matter what.

some pictures afta so long.

oh well this is my classmates. look at them. ahhaha.
NRO5O1







HUDA N ME.


JO N ME in the library. =]


i love u babe. EETA n ANA


i shud b reading those books actualie. haha.


aww. look at that. haha.

``oh well. i was being FORCED by nisa to do this "seven things bout me" hmmpp.. here goes. ``

Seven random facts abt me:
` im the only child
` im not close to both my parents.
` outgoing.
` too engross in silat:Tapak Suci.
` likes to spend tyme alone.
` dont like to go home early
` sometimes i talk to myself at home.(bcoz i got no one mah to talk to, talk alone larrr..)

Seven things that will scare me:
` God.
` death
` ghosst
` alone being in the dark
` dogs.
` cockroach
` guys who love me?


Seven random music:
` janjiku(sofaz)
` surgamu(ungu)
` andai ku tahu (ungu)
` dance dance(fall out boys)
` ruang rindu (letto)
` last nyte (p diddy ft keysia cole)
` dont love u no more(craig david)


Seven things I say the most:
` babe, u pat ne? (to nisa)
` im hungry
` i want to shit
` siao
` diam ah.(shut up)
` ape lar..
` love u. muak muaks.

Favourites colour : blue, baby blue, pink, black, orange, green
food : erm, anything also i eat lar.
song : aiya, what's tat song?
movie : ------
sport : silat!!
day of the week : tues, thurs, friday, sat.
ice cream flavour : chocolate of course.
car model : donno ah.
subject in school : ------
snacks : chocolates. sweets. ice creamsss..

Current mood : bored. tired. sleepy.
clothes : butterfly baju.
toenail colour : au natural
time : 1232hrs
surroundings : at home.
annoyance(s) : i hav one person in mind. haha.
thoughts : too stressed to think.

8 First(s)
best friend : my babe eeta
crush : "hmmm.."
movie : anything la.
piercing : cant remember.
lie : did i ever lie? haha.
music : bla bla black sheep. hah.
car : in 2 more years den u ask me.
real date venue : did i ever hav a real date?

Last(s) :drink : yougut drink
car ride : after trip to sungai buloh
"movie crush" : donno la.
phone call : my house.
song played : janjiku.
thing I do before I go to sleep : think bout everything, everyone.

6 Have You Ever(s) :
Have you ever dated one of your best friends : nope
Have you ever broken the law : yes.
Have you ever been arrested : nope n never.
Have you ever skinned dipped : what's skinned dipped? nope.
Have you ever been on TV : no. duhz
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know : no. duhz.

4 Things You've Done Today :-eat. bathe. sms. sleep.
3 Things You Can Hear Right Now : teevee's voice. me typing. mrt n lrt sounds.
2 Things You Can't Live Without : handphone. my friends...
1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored : browse my hp n take pictures larh. hah.

hee. done.

the extend that u can love urself is the extent that u can love others.

ignore what other thinks bout u n u'll really be free.
________________________________________

im damn bored.
nothing to update about.
stuffs.
hmm. none.

my presentations are coming in week 7.
now is week 5.
two weeks more.
den other presentations at week 15 n 16, n 17.
den semestral exams in week 18.
wow. i hate it.

this feeling. get it out.
now.

siswa-siswa Tapak Suci Yew Tee CC.


its a serious matter now. haha.

yesterday was mother's day.
i didnt even lay a single wish to her.
shud i? or shudnt i?
just forget it.
i didnt.
the incident was still fresh in each year during mother's day.
i being the only child,
dont hav any one to plan together what to do during each big day,
eg, mother's day, father's day, mom's bdae, dad's bdae, their anniversary.
i dont plan it with anyone.
n i never plan it ever.

once i tried to celebrate mother's day. dat was last yr i guess.
n then, it makes me feel that i dont want to even celebrate it ever again,
which i didnt.
last year, i decided to buy my mom a cake for mother's day.
i went out when my mom went to the mosque.
i bought two cakes.
when she came back, i said to her "happy mother's day mom."
n gav her the cakes that ive bought her.
she just told me to keep the cake in the fridge, n whoever wanna eat the cake can eat it.
den im like, "mom, dont u treasure dat i at least bought a cake for u? dont u even wanna taste it first b4 asking to let anyone taste it? n not even a thanks?" sigh.
at last, i was the one who ate the cake.
fine.
i gave up.
i dont knoe what more shud i do.
celebrating their bdae's? i nvr did that b4.
mayb i shud this year.
mayb i shud just give a try.
but den, first, i have to save.
n i hav to brainstorm what to buy for them.
any ideas?
for my dad especially.
gimme ideas.
i pity him.
i want to get him something this year.
my mom, i dont care that much.
i can ask my dad what to buy.
only that when i ask my mom what to buy for my dad, she'll be like,
"aiya, dont need to buy la. just wish enuf".
haix.
tell me.
wad is wrong wif her.

its feels like a running tap.
if i gather my tissues, it's gonna fill up a bucket. full.
i cant stop this tap from stopping.
perhaps taking panadol C (cold) wud help.
but some said 'take medication only when necessary'.
i dont feel its necessary.
so,
no medication puhlease.

oh great.
training hav started every tues n thurs nyte at kembangan.
argh.
so far.
so lazee to go there.
so tiring.
if only there's a transportation to n fro.
hmpf.
but even if no transportation,
at least some friends wud do.
but no one wud b goin towards east afta skewl.
hmpp..

gonna take a rest.
stop this running tap puhlease.
i cant stand sniffing around.

i'll keep it simple.
i feel happy.
i feel glad.
thanks. =]

shatter.
shatters.
shattering.
shattered.

i guess no.
im not dissappointed nor sad.
but i guess yea.
i am dissappointed n sad.
its just both.
possible.

i hate it.
totally hate it.
pushing me around.
argh.
its a good thing dat i didnt blow out todae.

cant u all just go for training?
why put ur name in the CC if u dont come for training?
what's the use?
if u cud go all the way to Kembangan for training, y cant u go down at ur area for training?
damn it. just making a scene.
might as well dont register at the CC n just register at Kembangan ryte.
argh, n another thing.
i want u all to get promoted.
but its up to u guys.
if u dont want, den its ur loss.
coz there's gonna be another test coming up soon.
2 years waiting to b promoted.
n this is it.
u r given the choice.
its up to u to train up or not.
fail or pass.
just go through it.
i hope u guys think bout it.

ive not eaten my dinner yet.
n i dont know if i wanna eat or not.
hmpf.
scared i mite get stomach ulcer.
hmpf.

im hungry..

feed me with love? haix..

a missing black brush is a hot topic in skewl tdae.
.
hmm..
''i dont know who took it''.
deffinately not me. hah.
i can take the brush that my dad used to scrub the toilet.
no need to take the brush.
that brush so ugly.
even the cleaner aunty's toilet brush much more nicer.
haha.

tmr is amoi's bdae(meiyi).
hmm.. just gonna celebrate a lil mini grp party tmr.
not gonna waste our class fund on such an occasion.
a waste of money i guess.
hmm..
NRO5O1.
i wonder if our class are united?
are we?
i just wish we are..
some of us cudnt get along with each other.
whereas, some tried to get along with each other.
n others, get along with each other TOO well. haha.
i reallie want to get our full grp photo.
just to end my video with a nice ending..
hmm...

ccrrraaammpppsss.......

im hungry.

suppossedly im to be on my bed ryte now.
but im having cramps on my tummy.
i hate having cramps.
especially menstrual cramps.
its so freakingly crampy.
makes me cant go to bed n just think of my crampy cramps.
i didnt wanna eat the panadol.
coz i dont wanna b dependent on eating painkillers.
i shud just endure the pain.
distracting myself is another way not to think of the cramps.
hmm.. i dont know what to distract myself.

anyways the video is on the making.
'the journey thru the 3yrs in poly..'
i want the past pictures we took..
if possible, some of our class photo's..
ive none.
n i want each individual photo if possible..
i wonder how to get my class take a whole class photo.
cud we?
i just want one big grp photo...
izzit so hard just to take a picture??..
hhmmmzz..
im out. cant stand the cramp.
gonna curl myself in the bed n get some sleep.

nytess..

there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

I love to work.(as if)
I love to be myself. yea. true.
I mite look decent, and good; but not a trace.
I stay awake till dawn,
I make myself busy till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm me..
And i just like to make myself busy.

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