.Thursday, June 28, 2007
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ive been busy these few days trying to concentrate n trying my best to start studying.
its just so hard to force myself.
each day, sure got some plans.
each day busy with plans to meet up, outside lessons, and hanging ard.
im so gonna start bucking up.
coz i just havta start studying.!
ryte afta i come back from the comp, i hav a test!
arrrgh. damn.
den i got presentations.
n exams.
we just hav loads to study. a total of more than 5 modules.
can say the modules can reach up till 10 modules?
haix. so tough.
i just hope i cud cope.
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u made me worried yesterday.
so worried coz u didnt message or called me.
so much more worried coz u ought to be home to rest.
n so much much more worried coz u off ur phone?!
i messaged adeq, he didnt reply.
i called him, he off his phone.
just what was all this?
why did u two off ur phone?
i just thought of bad things happening to both of u.
just how come coincedently dat u two off ur phone?!
arrgh..
i tried calling u again n again but it was still off.
next morning den u message dat ur batt phone was gone.
no more batt left.
argh. pissed off.
just got me worried for nothing.
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.Wednesday, June 27, 2007
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being myself.
it is me.
i gotta be me.
three words seems scary.
it doesnt even dangers me.
but my feelings. emotions.
mayb u said it was nothing.
but i dont know why i just find it hurting.
'nothing is wrong'..
yea.. nothing.
trust me on that.
i love him.
i love my frens.
i love all of you.
.Tuesday, June 26, 2007
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i met my mentor in skewl yesterday to ask her for approval to go somewhere during the skewl holidays.
i'd be gone from the 9th-16th july.
2 weeks from now.
gonna miss my every lectures tutorials n lab lessons.
so the gonna make up each and every lessons.
aargh..
yea. today den i got the approval by the NYP principle.
he just said one word.
'approved.'
yay! its gonna be my first tyme.
wow.
damn scary.. hmpf.
so the gonna start training when my lessons all are settled.
n i really havta catch up every single one of the lectures.
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as u know, yest i met my mentor.
she's a person who seldom talks to us.
but i did once talk to her during my first year i guess.
she counsel me once bout my mom.
n yes, yest she counsel me again.
i didnt knoe dat i wud be emotional in front of her talking bout my mom.
just the right time when i knew dat i had to cry my hearts out.
coz i just felt emoish the other day
it really feels good now.
thinking dat everything just happen for a reason.
we must trust ourselves dat we can hold on to the test that God has given us..
no mattter how alone n how lonely u r..
believe in urself.. n
believe in God..
.Saturday, June 23, 2007
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understand understood.
haix. where to? is there any place?
i just hope im hanging in there. hmm..
know me for me.
love me for me.
this feeling. its just so what ever.
as long as i be myself.
i dont care who she is.
but. the sight of it. hurts.
just when?
haix.
nxt week skewl starts n its tyme to get serious.
no more hanging out late.
i just hav to sit down n open up my lecture notes.
haix.
time to get stress back.
oh yea, my peep, there's loads to catch up with.
yup yup. i miss u all. haix.
'i will be strong'.
to face it.
.Monday, June 18, 2007
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finally.
its over.
the competition is over for me..!
yea. no more stresses.
no more trainings!!
yes yes. haha.
how's competition?
it was great!!
fun.
challenging.
very the competitative.
i'll post some pictures along the way..
the three dudes clowns. say wad u wanna say. crazee bunch.
me n amee on the road. fun times b4 competition day..
this is where we held our training. wit matress n carpets all over.
fighting over a weapon we call toya'.
picture.
aaarrr.. dont beat us puhlease............
on friday, 15.06.2007 amee in her clothes getting ready to compete.
she has done her best. n she is the best. we know dat u hav done ur best n u did ur best shot.
even thou u shud get the gold medal as anounced, dont b dissapointed dat u didnt get a thing when bad news was announced to u the next day. b strong my dear. u hav shown ppl dat u r wonderful. people know dat. dont care bout the medal. we dont mind, as long as u show what u hav. let them take the medal as much as they want.
oh well. this was taken during the opening ceremony. i was bored. haha.
oh well. it was on a saturday, 16.06.2007
it was 1am in the morning. just look at choa chu kang interchange. u got c ppl? i c none. hahaha. duhz. we had to take the bus back home coz no more mrt in service towards jurong.
saturday 16.06.2007. this is my regu mates. all smiles coz we got champion for our regu!! yay!! syukur alhamdulillah.. three consecutive gold for me each year. yay! haha. i was the smallest la duhs. hahaha. but size doesnt matter. wad matter is we've done our best. good job..
n yea, my make up was damn whitish. i hate it. the make up was thick. the next day conferm pimple outbreak. n afiq is so bad that everyone started to call me one of those chinese oprah. so bad............... hur hur..
den i had to b a part time baby sitter afta the comp. i had to put this baby on my hands to sleep. but thank god i manage to sleep her. haha.
in the train afta 2nd day of competition.those hands n legs were, faiz(white shoe), me(pink sandal), amee(white sandals), afiq(slippers) n yasin(brown shoes).
sunday's competition was fun too.
ayeisha manage to stay her position for tunggal. so another championship for her this year.
n safwan also manage to grab position for tunggal. gold medal for him too.
my ganda with ayeisha, we dint make it to the top three.
but conferm we had fun, we did our best n we know dat we r the champion in ourselves.
there's still nxt year to look forward t0o.
for those who didnt manage to get a medal,
dont b dissapointed. there's always another chance for u.
there's still a long way to go.
train up to do the very best.
i know u can do it if u make an effort.
there is still a competition on this sat n sun.
its tanding category. seni ended yesterday.
so yea, if u wanna come do come.
entrance hav to pay if u dont hav the pass.
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i never regretted dat u ever make me smile.
i never regrett dat we were once close.
but u said it wasnt ryte n we were gone just like dat.
no news no nothing.
u got a bike.
n dat u r signaling something.
i just dont know what to do now.
i hope it wudnt b in a mess soon.
just leave me alone puhlease.
i dont want u to play around.
ive locked my heart from u.
go away n dont come near please.
ive had enuf of all this lying. this kindda craps.
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but i dont know why, i decide to give someone one chance.
to prove to me dat i must go on.
im trying to..
im trying not to b scared. but i am still scared.
dont lie to me.
dont make me measerable.
dont make me suffer.
i hav enuf.
enuf enuf.
i really hope so..
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.Wednesday, June 13, 2007
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oh well, really enjoy every bits of yesterday..
took pictures almost over 100 shots wit my kiddos.
love them to bits.. here r SOME of it.
others, gotta c in my phone for urself. haha.
from left: afiq, meera, lolu n me..
yea, we love her..
pose in the toilet at limbang maC.
the bermuda, the monkey n the choc chip.. haha.
she just stare at us..
dont they just love Ronald? hahahahah...
yo yo. rockers..
aww.
pose!
mat malaysia lost in singapore. haha.
Kassim Selamat ah??
from left: ayeisha, afiq, me, meera n lolu..
she just loves me..
shoes from left: afiq, mine, afiq, meera, mine, meera. haha.
from behind(reflection) left: wearing cap, uan, shah, adi, me.
front from left: akmal, meera n afiq..
otw home from training..