.Tuesday, October 23, 2007
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weee.. thanks again mat tau for saving my bloggie...
oh weell. my picture was small in the first place.
den mat tau showed me the right way to stretch the picture.
thanks!!
sorie to keep troble u bout my blog.
heee..
so, today had my first practical lesson.
was nervous lar.
but still keep a brave figure.
the chair had to b move in front in order for me to reach the clutch.
n i tell u.
it was the maximum n yet, i didnt felt comfortable. heh.
the instructor call me "ketot".
so bad sia. boohoo..
but i had fun.
n i wanna try it again.
today just learn bout the car parts, the engines, how to change the tyres.
it was really in depth.
n den i had to try on the road.
manage to go a few rounds in the circuit.
n i stalled twice i guess?
haha. paiseh lei.
so many cars behind waiting for my car to move.
ahaks.
funny.
dats all for today.
i'll update more bout my nxt practical tmr..
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ever wondered why does ur ex need to call u each n every day?
what does she want?
called early in the morning.
late at nite.
talking till like 10 minutes on the phone.
just wad topics do u guys have?
ok.
fine.
i give up on getting jealous over that.
n it makes me weak.
just weak.
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.Monday, October 22, 2007
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i went to bbdc today with him.
ride the bike.
bicycle i mean.
haha.
i was thinking to change from a school candidate to a private candidate.
but i was being psychoed.
by the person there.
she ask me a lot of question dat suddenly i didnt change.
now, ive to start.
but im scared. gee.
im aiming to get it by nxt yr. by march.
i dont care. heee.
i want it badly. so im gonna start it soon.
as soon.
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i finally talked to him.
n yeah.
i guess its settled.
im sorry.
soorry if i followed my emotions too much.
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hav trust n faith in someone u love.
.Wednesday, October 17, 2007
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met up with my dear earlier today.
n ended up not talking much by the end we met up.
we didnt meet up quite a few times n we both seems not to b in any of the normal topics.
i dont know wads coming up.
i dont know what.
r things falling apart?
i feel that there iznt any more open conversation.
izzit me or izzit u?
i guess me.
still not being secured.
im still shaking afta a few months im being with him.
i dont know what is up with me.
i love him.
but to0 many things r in my mind ryte now.
things tat i heard from people.
making me still questioning.
but i already had the answer from him.
its just dat, argh.
trust.
ive to trust him.
but i cant give the full blast of trustfullness.
coz guys, i mean some guys cudnt b trusted.
i knoe i cudnt compare to any guys.
but
n im scared.
still scared dat i mite get hurt again one day.
sometimes i just wonder what is it like to b single.
to b enjoying the fun being single.
but i am grateful dat i hav someone by my side,..
y isnt there any good news dat i heard from others?
y do they think that mayb he's not the one for me?
i need answers from the people that think wrongly bout him.
i need to knoe what u people know bout him.
i dont want any wrong info to b pass around.
it wudnt make me comfortable.
n im feeling uneasy.
uneasy when im being alone.
n still feeling uneasy being with him, ever since i know that people know something bout him...
i just beg anyone who knows anything, if u wud like to c me being happy, i just want to know what u know...
thats all.
im sorry if i acted differently ever since we dint get to meet up that often.
its just dat mayb i felt guilty.
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.Tuesday, October 16, 2007
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pada bulan yang mulia ini.
dlm bulan Syawal, ana ingin sangat meminta maaf.
ana ingin meminta maaf andai selama kita persahabatan terdapat salah silap yg ana pernah lakukan selama ini. maafkan jika ana pernah terkasar bahasa, tersilap kate, tersinggung kan hati... ana memohon keampunan di syawal ini..
adik, i am sorie klau selama ini, perhubungan antara adik n abg tk seperti dahulu.. kak ana rase bersalah walaupon korg berdua berkata kak ana tk bersalah. tapi kak ana tahu kak ana lah satu satu sebabnya kenapa adik n abg tk rapat lagi. i felt guilty. guilty for making the two of u not like before. i want both of u to b together back, but i just dont know how. dua dua keras kepala. kak ana pon naik binggung. ive always think bout both of u. but i cant help feeling guilty. i love the both of u. i love him. i guess this wudnt hav happen if i were to b at limbang mac the first time dat i met u guys there. i guess all this wudnt hav happen if i were to always hang out wit u guys the last time. i guess all this wudnt hav happen if i didnt get close to both of u. i dont regret meeting the both of u, i dont regret loving the both of u. but i didnt expect things to go this way. what was the cause of it? i tot we've talked it all out? is there still anything to say? i think there's lots to say, lots of things to b expressed. but what is it? i cant stand looking at one party getting hurt. ego. both of u. i dont know how. i dont know why. i dont know what to do now. now dat we r falling apart, i as a sister wudnt want u to get hurt of all this. mayb we shud talk, we shud express our feelings our thoughts. we hav to give n to take.
adik, kak ana nk mintak keampunan klau kerana kak ana semua terjadi begini. kak ana will try my best to get the both of u to get back together. n i really hope i cud get the coorperation by the both of u.. we love u adik. n we miss u loads....
adik, on behalf of abg, kak ana minta maaf klau selama ini he did all those things to u as if he dint care bout u. but i know deep down, he still care for u n he still think bout u..
oh well. till here.
.Thursday, October 11, 2007
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raya's coming in the nxt two days.
the house is cleaned.
only the curtains are not up yet.
early morning ive been bz goin to my grannie's shop to help her out.
just helping out the stall for a while n help her to close the shop.
den i'll go home n clean my room or stuffs..
hmm..
ive not heard any news from the ones dat i was close with.
i miss them so much.
not even a second hav i forgotten bout them.
i just miss our one whole 'big family'.
we wudnt b seperated if all cud accept their own mistakes.
but i guess some of them do need time to think of their own doins.
they need time.
but yea,
im giving time till the end of Ramadhan.
n i really hope that our one whole family wud get back together by Syawal to forgive n forget..
.Friday, October 05, 2007
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im just gonna add some pictures..
for latest updates.
but sorie.
mind u that i didnt wear my scarf as i was on duty..
just wanna show the 5 weeks dat we all hav enjoyed during this posting..
this was during our posting at St Andrew's Hospital at Simei..
from left: nad, yanti, deen, ana.
the seven dwarfs..
from left: brainy dwarf, wisey dwarf, tally dwarf, georgeous dwarf, cheeky dwarf, whity dwarf and cutey dwarf!! hahaha...
one thing special in our ward is dat we hav a reminence room, where all the things are old fashioned. so during the last day, we spent our time snapping pictures there..!!
having a tea together..
oh no! the "makcik" are back!!!
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this was after the 3 weeks posting, we had one week of posting in the operating theatre.
so, this was how we look like in there..
nice pinky cap aites.. hahah..
n yea, she was a sweet n naughtie gal.
witout her, it wudnt b an enjoyment. haha.
afta one week in OT, we had one week more in the emergency department.
in ED was fun.
experiencing the tense working in an emergency situation.
overall we had fun.
over the past 5 weeks our frship bonding got closer together.
we enjoyed working together as a team, knowing their good n bad behaviour, watching grossy stuffs, n joking ard together..
i sure wud miss them.. haha.
so now, end of attachment n start of holidays for 5 weeks.
yes! 5 weeks.
i want to work, but ibu wont allow me..
do u guys know of a work where u get paid while working at home??
can gimme any works available??
haix.
im in need of money...
hmpfs..
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i miss hym so much.
so long dat we dint meet up.
haix.
i wonder hows he's doing.
i hope u're fine darl.
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.Wednesday, October 03, 2007
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finally. this blog skin hav been changed.
it took me quite a long time to hav this change.
n im gonna b late for my work.
haha.
but thank god dat someone manage to help me out.
credits to "mat tau" for helping me out.
n yea. dont worry.
i still remember that i owe u a coffee treat.
some other tyme when im free aites.
i knoe i knoe.
i'll try to make myself free. haha.. but.
thanks a lot!!!
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im gonna get change n try to get this sofa out from my living room.
take care everyone!