.Thursday, March 27, 2008
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mom still havnt get any betta.
a bit of improvement to her bp as its getting higher.
n her heart rate just got so fast.
i cant bear looking at her, with a tube on her mouth, nose.
i just cant look at my love once being in tat situation.
mom, i hope u'd get betta even thou now they found a fungal at ur body.
i dont understand whatare the doctors are doin?
haix.
i just dont wanna get into it n just hope that u'd get betta.
taking care of atok is rather easy job.
he can do a certain thing, but he just needs help and assistance.
n ibu, please, dont hav the idea of asking atok to stay at his real daughter's home.
haix.
God, i really hope that mom wud b fine. n please let her be fine. please let her stay strong. God, please change ibu's attitude. being the eldest, she mustnt make stupid decisions. i hope u open her heart much more. Amin.
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that tyme i went to visit eiz's dad at AH.
his dad was fine.
only fracture at the ankle area.
i hope he wud b able to walk n discharged soon.
n thanks to him, his ibu decided to sent me off a bus to see me go home.
gosh.
shameful.
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haix.
its been a time that i miss everyone upon listening to lots of different kindda music.
haix.
n fyi, a grandma at my ward is asking me to know one of his grandson in law.
omg.
no? yes?
if friends? why not?
haix....
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.Monday, March 24, 2008
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ryte now in the office typing out what i wanted to be typed.
days have pass and its day 4 since my grannie's being admitted.
she was admitted to one of the singapore's hospital coz of diarrhea and vomitting.
n now, just becoz of too much fluid that the doc has infused to her, she's in ICU.
infusing 3.5L of N/s in 24h witout checking the urine output.
even if they were to checked it b4 hand, y didnt they do a procedure right afta they know that there wasnt a urine output.
now she has to go for a sudden dialysis.
den her bp was still low.
the nxt day, the doc told us that she's in SICU.
coz the MICU has no beds available.
an ETT was being inserted thru her trachea to help her in breathing.
a CVP line was placed at her neck.
n her hands are edematous.
it was a pity to see her enduring the pain.
holding to our hands tightly when we hold her.
mostly that saw her, cudnt help shedding tears.
coz who knows a strong grandma like her, who likes to support me whenever i hav probs wit my parents, a grandma that likes to go ard shopping, a grandma that is so loving would be in a situation like this.
i just cudnt stand any longer.
what are the doc doing??
trying to find another antibiotic for the infected bloood in her body?!
poking her kidney to drain out the urine. at last, we thought that was the end.
but complications came.
now, she's having blood clots in her eye and body.
just what is happening to her??!!
all i can do is to pray for her to stay strong..
please pray for my grandmother's recovery.
n for my aunty n my grandfather to stay strong witout my grandma.
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i pitied my aunty coz she has to juggle between her studies, her mom in the hosp n the father who is sickly at home.
so my family decided to stay a week at mom's place.
so for the whole week, im not gonna head home yet.
so i'll b at telok blangah.
haix.
im going off soon to visit my grandma.
i dont knoe what else to b told,
coz i'm just too tired.
working, staying up late to jaga them.
but sometimes talking on the phone.
haaa...
im getting to know a friend who is a malay, 20, who talks mostly english.
it a hard tyme trying to know that friend.
n i wish all the full recovery for eiz's dad.
hopefully he gets betta from the fall.
he wants me to visit his dad, but too bad i was busy working.
n i dont think that its a great idea to go there.
u know, u, me. nothing in common?
y not ajak eira? aaaaa.....
i got a shock tat an old friend of mine msged me.
i missed that friend la sey.
since no skewl, no see, miss.
haaa... but too bad it was late at nite.
haix.........
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.Monday, March 17, 2008
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its been a time that i updated.
n lots are awaiting for the updates of me.
nothing to be updated.
im just the same old me.
working, lepakking, missing the peeps that i missed.
there was once that i met eiz wif his frens under their blk afta work.
we played card games n tat's it.
nothing more.
den i started missing him.
n now, the misses has fallen to the drain.
just today, his frens was at the place i lepak,
den he came wif his ex.
hmmz.
jealousy.
right. it was still there.
i cudnt b bothered wit them.
i just talked to yasin n his riders.
its fcuking irritating.
he didnt noticed me as i sat facing back.
den he came n salam me n pinch me.
wads that for.
i miss u damn it.
but nah.
when they went off, he was bring her bag along, n she was tagging him.
he dint even bother to salam!
aaarrgh..
fine eira, he's urs.
i just wanna know if u guys r a pair.
tat wud not make me heart pain!
darn u both.
its okay.
im gonna stay single.
as long as my contact list is getting longer.
wahahaha.
got to know a lot of friends now.
n im trying slowly to get the right one.
wahahaha.
im not gonna look back aagain at my old contact list n getting a hard tyme to get over them.
but i cant deny that i miss all my exs n my fling. hahahaha. lol.
fine. stop it with all the crap.
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my ward has become a psychatric ward.
having the people that scold vulgaraties,
people that kick n punch n touch u,
people that wanna run away.
wow.
it was fun.
esp when getting kicked by someone.
gosh.
it was a painful experience.
but i had fun.
i felt like staying as a health care assistant,
but i cant.
it time to b promoted in one month's time. haaa..
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my cousin's wedding is just round the corner.
n im wondering how am i gonna reach there on time afta i work.
how how?
im hoping for someone to appear to pick me up.
wahahaha...
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im turning to bed now..
.Wednesday, March 05, 2008
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haix. its been long since i last update one.
today was my off day.
n i started work on 03.03.2008.
as Health Care Assistant in Ward 43, NUH.
hahaha..
i cant wait to get my first pay.
so that i cud spent some on myself. duh. haha.
being a HCA wasnt that though.
but it was tiring.
we cudnt do much of what our standards as graduated poly students shud do.
but it was ok. earning more of a thousand b4 cutting of CPF.
working has to b a 6 days working days.
and 7.5 hours each day.
now, we can go home as early as possible coz once we're done, we can go home!
hahaha..
so far i love the job that im doing.
seeing my patients happy whenever i smiled at them.
but some got too far.
but yet, they are still my patients.
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people that ive known so far is rather interested in nursing line.
n im glad that they come to realise that nursing is fun.
even though u dont feel it yet,
i guess as u go by, u'll like it.
so for whoever that has chose nursing as their line,
all i wanna say is u did the right thing n its time for u to try what u've choosen.
its no time to loose.
u've lots to learn bout nursing.
hahaha..
i bet u'd have a great experience.
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ok. done with nursing nursing words.
a few days before my work starts, i enjoyed a few days of my time.
hanging ard with my beloved adiks' and friends'.
but too bad i dint hand out wit my bestie!
i miss u babe! wher r u eeta! meet me up puhlese..
y am i always free when u're not, n u're always free when im not??!
haix... we both betta make some time together darling.
ok. back then, i watched a movie with my dear GFs.
it was on the 29th February 2008.
a leap year.
n yea, we watched the leap years.
my gf meiyi wanted to watch a horror show, the eye.
so, we dint wanna waste hana's effort of following us, we watch the leap yrs.
waiting for this nisa at J8 took her a long time to meet us.
n at last, all four of us united together. hahahaha..
it was fun.
i bet the nxt meeting wud b when we're gonna register ourself as a RN.
weeeeeeee....
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on sunday i met adk yasin at vivo to watch danceworks.
it was superb..
definately.
i wanted to move my body too when i saw the dances dancing on the dance floor.
many. too many people. more to the mats n minahs.
n over the crowds, i saw the twins of silat n the other gangs.
aww. i miss them.
i miss those times we were at Karimun Island.
haix..
montages of the memories came back..
but life goes on.
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once a time, this week,
it was random that i suddenly msged him that i missed him.
haha. it was random.
duhs.
hahaha.
but nothing more is to b expected from me n him.
even though if my heart says that i can accept him back,
wud my frens accept him back?
haix.
but nah. nothing's up.
nothing.
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i am currently giving up on msging the guys that i know.
msging them feels a pain in myself.
its like u want them to reply, but they didnt.
****.
i was bored.
n i am bored.
always waiting for the msges to come from them.
but none.
argh.
fine.
when they feel like finding me, all come to me.
what! there is season is it.
damn it.
craps sia.
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i am now im my mom's office at SP.
no one is in the office except me n a cleaner.
ibu has gone for line dancing and she has to help on the talk this evening.
so, after this, im gonna head towards NUH.
to go to my locker n take back my key which ive forgotten to bring back yest.
hahaha.
if not, how am i supposed to work tmr!
gosh.
how i wish ive someone to pick me to and fro. haix.
can i hav one of the riders? hahahaha.. lol.
joking..
but partly im serious in finding a rider. haha.
any recommendations?? hmmmm....
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